Still in the same place I was barely a month ago, free-time wise. Sure, I've got my built-in work weekends, but I'm usually so worn out from the week that I can barely tear myself away from the comforts of YouTube.
Forcing myself into a schedule - which has to happen, by the way, given that I'm starting my coursework in less than a month - might wiggle me back into my online life if I demand it to. I've never really liked having to plan every day, hour-by-hour, because I know that life is a big game of chance and things will come up... so what's the point of blocking off time with things that must be done if you'll be interrupted? I constantly have to play mind games with myself and my mental illness so I'm not stuck in an OCD-induced panic hell when it comes to time and its constraints.
To be fair, I think panic-over-random-inconsequential-events is about one of the milder things that my brain makes me do, but life would sure be better if I didn't have to put up with this shit.
My job responsibilities got jostled up already - I've essentially been changed from housekeeping/customer service to JUST housekeeping. I was far more upset about it when they sprung it on me halfway through my shift last week, but my last full day wasn't too bad in the long run. It's annoying that they're expecting my team to clean the same things with more frequency (seemingly out of nowhere) and I've been explicitly instructed to "always have a broom in my hand", but I think that's more of the presentation of information to me than the actual situation.
Really, what I have to do is spend more time doing monotonous, tiny bits of cleaning that don't actually need to be done in the long run. Things like wiping the occasional fingerprint off a glass window or getting a small water stain off the wall. It's really... not that interesting. But it could be way, way worse.
Spring means summer these days where I live, so the weather has gotten into the 60s and 70s (farenheit; 15-20s in celcius) already. My nightmare, personally. I'm always hot all the time, and I hate the humidity all summer long. And I know it's going to be a busy summer for me this year.
My dad is getting his shipment of bees sometime this week, so I'll be dealing with that in my spare time for the forseeable future. Life's about to become a real hotbed of "activities that take several hours a day to do" for me and I've never been less excited - you read my ramble about time constraints already, you can see why. I'm just hoping things actually run smoothly for once now that I have less... detrimental responsibilities, so to speak.
Besides the coursework, my job, taking care of a good 50% of housework (including helping build things for the house, do repairs, and help with the bees), and having at least a smidge of a social life... I think I'll have some time for myself. Hopefully, it won't be like last year where my body "forced" me into it by getting pneumonia, but I'm not gonna exactly complain if I get stuck inside all day a few times this summer.
The days are getting longer, the night is coming later, and the eclipse felt like a taste of the strange change about to come for me.
An obligatory picture of my girls enjoying the sun.
☣ Feeling: Ennui